I made it over 4 months. During that 4 months I have made incredible strength gains in the gym lifting (that is what I replaced a lot of my free time with that I had spent drinking). I met a girl in a place I had no business being and she wanted to drink. I told her I don’t drink but it became obvious she wasn’t going to drink alone so I reverted back to my old ways. One drink turned into.. a ton of vodka and mixed drinks.. probably enough to knock out a non alcoholic. A long story short I got her number and a kiss but thats all and even if it had been more definitely not worth it.
Now I want to come back into the program but I feel this shame. Has anybody ever been through this and how did you deal with it?