My nephew’s third birthday party is in a hour and a half and I have decided not to go. My sister’s husband has some pretty bad back pain and I’m pretty sure he got some opies. My family knows I am an addict and so I told them I don’t wanna even go to the house where the b-day party’s at. Even if the meds were hidden (which I’m sure they would be) I would still constantly be scanning the rooms for them. And I don’t wanna do that. But also, I feel guilty for not going because I know I would show up if I was high. But I am not nor will be, so I’m kinda stuck in a mental bog. Any advice?